Infertile

I dreaded this word.  That's why I procrastinated going back to my doctor.  It's why I said, maybe one more month. 
The road through the land of infertility can be long.  I don't know anyone who's gone themselves, but I've read some blogs.  I didn't want to join them. 
They scare you, you know -- they scare you into thinking pregnancy is easy.  No sex without protection cause you'll get pregnant.  I guess it is, for some.  Apparently not for us. 
Why Not???
We date a while, I freak out when my period is late.  We dated for 5 years, took things slow are carefully (he was tentative due to his experience with exwife, I was tentative due to my experience with my parents).  We waited after we got married, time for us to all adjust to the newness of the family.  And then we're ready.  And it doesn't happen, and it doesn't happen, and it doesn't happen.  What's up with that?  Why can't it be easy?  No one told me it would be like this.